Piano Theory

So what if i love to camwhore? well, every typical girls love the sight of their face on the camera. Anyway, i'm here for my daily blurts.

I HAVE FOUR DAYS PIANO LESSON EACH WEEK! theory is like grinding my head to a machine, banging my brain up and down, left to right, searching for some answers.

You know what my mum said?  

"You're good in english, what's the problem?"

No, it's not because you're good in english and you can nail Physic. It's different thing, totally different. You have to learn new terms, new theory, new words, you have to read other instruments, read why is the note here and not there, why you can't put it here and not there, why there are a few special cases..

and yeah, people would shoot at me, "you wrote songs, this should not be a problem!"

i wrote songs just the way how Taylor Swift wrote hers.

ON A BOOK(for lyrics) WITH NO NOTES BUT A VOICE RECORDER

not the kind where Vivaldi, Chopin or Schubert would do. They do tedious words, they figure out the chords, the phrase, the notes, the parts, the whatever shit that i don't even give a damn when i wrote my own song. It's just..as long as it sound perfect, you know you are writing it correctly, so why give a damn about what cadence should be put in here or there..

i want you to stare at the baby. YEAP! THAT IS MY FACE..like seriously, it's MY FACE crop out and stick onto that baby faceless face.

Not only that, they give you orchestra notes where you have to strain your eyes and look at every nook and corner. You have to TRANSLATE notes and it's not like translating French to English. is translating NOTES to NOTES to a different key, to a different chord. whatever crap am i talking about..

and you must KNOW each instruments, each composers, each terms..blah and blah..

really, if i continue cursing here, people would have just tape my mouth with a paper signing "YOU ARE NOT FIT FOR MUSIC"

but i'm no Beethoven or Handel or well (let's take a newer generation) John Williams.

i'm more towards like Kara (frm american idol? that skinny judge?) pop..yeah..it's like asking a hip hop dancer dance Latin or ballet.

Totally the same for me..

xoxo

Ann

i love my friends

So,  i met really great friends for these two years. I remember how they treat me, what fun we have together.

I remember my favourite word "BEI WO!" (carry me! in chinese) and i would climb on either Ning, tortoise or Stupid back and they would carry me to wherever they feel like. XD Up the stairs, up four floors, to the loo..

From left: Jovelle a.k.a tortoise, jesslyn, Yong, me, Yingying, ning..

and then we would sit on the floor at the back and steal to eat our breakfast, while the teachers are infront either sleeping or not even aware that three chinese girls are missing from their desks.

and just right after each lesson, we would jump to the next class to meet Sandy and Shey Hwa or entertain Stupid who would usually be in our class pretending to be one of our class student.

and there were times too where we would hop out of school during lunch break, sitting Stupid car to the petrol station to eat cup noodles.

there were times that we order Mcdonald..

playing truth or dare at the back of our class

lol...ultra short skirt..dont look!

my mou mou friends. of course, Stupid is not there and my parents are extremely sensitive to her..

(left)Ying ying, the prettiest and shy-iest girl in class. Soooo quiet..XD

even though i have empty chairs, i always choose to sit on everyone's lap.

Jovelle the tortoise had been sitting next to me for two years!

and we had argued before..twice ..i think, and i haven't spoken to her for one whole day until she offer me a spoon of her mum's awesome cabonara spaghetti.

Hehe XD

and then we share all sorts of food together.

wee~i love this..LOL! i'm not the shortest even though this picture shows it.  they were wearing heels, i am wearing flats.

Love..

i like this picture!

so dear friends, hope you guys will never leave me, coz i will never leave you guys..

*hugs*

i miss our memories together

Ambition (uneditted photos)

I've been thinking a lot..

what the hell do i really wanna be???

owkay, when i was little like std1,2,3, i use to say

"i wanna be a teacher"

*bleuargh*

then when i was std5 and 6, music blossom inside me.

Yeap, i wasn't that good in music when i was little,

but then it just burst out when i reach 10 yrs old.

dang, i wrote in every book "i wanna be a musician"

Then this dream stuck until i reach form4.

There was a fight about which stream do i want to take.

i was place in Full science stream, but my family objected it

"are you going to be a doctor? if you're not, don't even dream of taking full science!"

but i don't want to be in Full arts either, i don't have any friends at all over there..

"what do you want to be???" my family asked.

"An AUDIO ENGINEER!!!" i blurted out, because i  heard that you need to take physics.

i went to do research on that course, good, i love working behind recording studio.

but..MY FAMILY don't even give two hoots about it at all.

Then i went to take the middle path, half science and arts.

Thank god i took up account, i never regretted studying it.

by Form 5, i was torn between two lovers.

Music or accountancy..

xoxo

Ann

Leopard Dress

i have own a LOT of flare skirts, but i feel sooo 13 yrs old with it, and the best thing is, i owned A LOT of it..*sigh* i really need to repack my whole closet already, ditch the flare skirts, it's sooooo erm..utterly girly?

urgh..

Tarzan and Jane..

Owkay..so more tight skirts for me, short denim pants and if want to buy a dress, i had it tight, no more flare flare..I feel sooo..erm..groggy?(what is it with my vocab these days.><)

I've been asking around people what would happen if i cut my hair boyshort.

My mou mou friends said "NO!!!"

a guy say "it's ok..do watever i like.."

Another guy say ."Don't please!"

i forgot to ask Stupid..let me read her mind..hmm.."i dare you!" she would say that to me!

you see, i got motivated to cut it off after i saw my sexy friend cut her tresses off. god, she looks hot and her hair is still brown from last two years dye.

here's the con of having long hair. you see, this year, the temperature is like disgustingly high, and your hair acted like an extra layer of scarf around your neck. wtf..it's like a sauna with that hair keeping you warm .

and the longer your hair grows, the more your hair drops.

so that's that..but i'm still chicken out to cut it. seriously, people look prettier with long hair ..no offence though, because i had a fat face, i need more hair to cover my flabby face. but on the other hand, imma want a fresh look, and i'm sick of having long hair.

and my fringe is disgustingly long. it's like covering one side of my eye..which is good for emo-ing and good for covering my small monolids.

HA!

anyway, i listen to you, you ask me don't cut my fringe, i don't..

lol!

my hair..still curly..

so what the hell am i going to do with it? dye it? yeah yeah..i wanna do that soo much,  just dark hazel brown would not be too distinct from black, it won't harm school..lol

=.=''

leopard dress: shop@ sungei wang

heels: NEU LOOK

eye liner: Shisheido

Lashes: M.A.C

pale pinkish lipstick: Elizabeth Arden

xoxo

Ann

flushes of sadness

I have a sudden flush of sadness and misses just five minutes ago..

I don't what is it, or maybe something reminded me of you, that make my heart puncture another hole in it. it's already a record that i haven't cried for a week, and i told myself that i should not cry again today. *swallow hard*

whatever it is, i had to deal it alone, coz nobody understand. Nobody will understand coz nobody had my story. well, just unless that person is living in another era which made Pearl Harbour famous. That is one story which is elligible to be compared to mine. If chicken flies after two years, let it be.

I have already make early preparation for it

and i will step outside the world and view it further

what a sick face i have.

what to do, i'm only 17 and a half.

i want to get married before i'm 28 yrs old.

i want to had a stable job at 24 yrs old.

a stable courtship when i was 21 yrs old.

there's still a long way for me to climb. i thought once high school is over, i had my dream to be free. but guess i'm not..

what a slutty face..

lol

back to my old broom hair.

so tomorrow, back to having piano lessons four times a week.

eating bread for breakfast and sleep in the afternoon.

Lazy bum...

gnite readers..

*yawn*..

my lovestory cannot be compared to Romeo and Juliet though.

theirs were utterly sad and horrible..

xoxo

Ann

The Event

i not only waste my parent's money, waste my sister's time and my job just because of this event who just wanna make money to get a place to meet casting agents in Disney, Orlando, America.

So after rushing to get a flight ticket, i did everything on my own..T.T

i was known as a baby at school, i can't do anything for myself. i can't buy cup noodles on my own without knowing how it works. I can't even walk to the toilet without climbing up the back of my friends, asking them to carry me there..lol XD

LOOk at the price of the package..it's in USD, not RM..

anyway..so i landed 10 minutes earlier, a bit lost, coz i'm a daydreamer. Went out and waited half an hour for my shorty sister. Then got a phone call of her yelling her head off at me, asking me where i was. I said, QUIZNOZ!! turn out she was in Terminal 3 and i was at terminal1 which is completely north and south and in a different building. ><''

thank god her hot bod beau found me...i was like..who is this stranger?

HUH!?!?..didn't my mum ask me not to talk to stranger?

and the best thing is, i follow THAT STRANGER..

Took a taxi to Marina Bay..woo~look at their ceiling..

a costly fee for the taxi><'' and oh yeah, of course, we found my shorty sister at terminal3..><

then went to Angsana Ballroom, saw the place and fill with KIDS..

yes, note, this interview is for children age 6-17yrs old. By September, i am expired..like a product chuck out of its label. Plenty of cacausian there, and thank god i wasn't the only one looking old there..

poor sister had to drag my luggage..

haha

Then the american host let us watch a video of what is this event for.you had to attend events at december 22nd at Orlando, to meet renowned casting agents, celebrities that grow up from THE EVENT. and of course, you had to pay for it, the more event you attend, the more the chances for you to get a callback. it's a GIMMICK. but thank god i didn't go there and just show my face. they ask us to choose a commercial line, get interview by a petite model, and do a commercial audition infront of another judge.

MBS

 so the petite model with the spanish accent look at my sister from head to toe.

model to sister: You must have you parents here! if you are here, are you able to afford this packages?

sister: yeah, if my parents approve of it!

Model: But you must make the payment by MOnday when she gets through, how old are you?

Sister: i'm 25 yrs old!!! (for crying out loud!)

model: OMG!! *shock* you look like 14! you should audition this for yourself instead!!

me: Hello, lady...i'm here, you didn't even take a look at me...*&&$#^%

of coz she looks like 14! she's wearing my pants which i bought when i was 14 and i'm still taller than her!

lol

i couldn't find any dress..i can't dress too old, because i'm suppose to be in a kid's channel? i can't dress too young because they freak out thinking that a grandma turn up with their kid's attire.

so i stayed ALONE again..in my aunt house. Woo~ nice and simple dinner. took the plane back today because everybody had work after sunday, so today is the only chance for me to get a transport to the airport..

again..i walk the streets alone..

thank you my sister for leaving her job to acc me there.

thank you daddy for his money =.=''

thank you mummy for the pocket money.

thank you aunty and her husband for the lodging, food and petrol

thank you cousin, Reg and Ren for entertaining me..

for once, i feel such a grown up..

at least i earn an experience..

so..i had sat on a bus alone

i had sat on a plane alone

next thing i wanna try is to sit the train alone..

oh yeah..

XD

xoxo

Ann

Sneak Peak

How's the side cut, eh?

here's a sneak preview of my next blogpost.

SIDE CUT!!! lol..crazy over this kind of hair these days, but just like Annick said, Malaysia is a consevative country, so whatever it is, this kind of hair should only walk the streets out of malaysia.

TOMORROW, i am going to be a REAL BIG GROWN UP..

=.=''

hopefully i can manage it.

I have no idea what i had put myself in. I just click on an advertisement in FB, sign myself in for their audition, and didn't know they took it seriously. After more than 10th phone calls and missing one interview last saturday, they gave me another chance tomorrow..

I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT SHOULD I DO..

i told my boss, "sorry, i can't go work tomorrow" at Perlis..

quickly book the air ticket..

and guess what..

Ann Tan, is sitting the aeroplane ALONE for the first time ..><

T.T

if i can pass this test, i really think i am GROWING UP!!

Hehehehehehe..

and i got my driving liscence ady ..

awesome..

wait for me!!!!!

WAIT FOr me..

I miss you <3

( :

only three days, or maybe one week..

xoxo

Ann

older

I'm going to another gathering later tonight. Wee~ i thought after that problem, i'll be grounded at home again, but i can go out! yeah, well, with my parents checking in and see who's over there first. but it's better than not getting out at all. But i guess i will be ban from Star Parade for these two years.

god, i really need to go to watson or guardian, i need facial wools for toner, my Kiehl cleanser is dehydrating soon, i need to buy mascara..

where is SASA when i need one?!??!

mum went to my violin teacher to seek for advice and get back my cert. instead of taking performance certificate, i would rather skip it and take diploma. My johnny depp look-a-like violin teacher is FIERCE. don't play with him, he meant business and seriousness. He said if i wanna take diploma i have to work like a horse. ><

and one month diploma fee's cost RM300!

bankrupt larh! my piano fee's one month ady Rm280, now add another burden

my dad doesn't print money you knw?

Hungry now. i expect myself to be FAT because i don't eat proper breakfast at all. NO, and at night, i eat like a big fat pig. *yum yum yum*

this morning i bake 8 finger nuggets

yesterday ate black pepper chicken bread

tuesday, mum bought nasi lemak

monday, ate sandwich

sunday, ate bread

>< bread bread bread...

i envy those Korean girls having soooo smooth and porcelain skin.

I wanna go there and stay there and grow milk-like skin too! T.T

i have a horrible forehead and t-zone, that's all i wanna fight with.

zap zap zap..

got a feedback about my blog.

Why your blog sooo emo these days?

lol! this is how i look like whenever i write on my blog (look up!)

><''

kill you kill you

tie you up

AAAAAAARRRRGHHHH

poke yoU!

lol...

i become cannibal

xoxo

Ann

Paradise

My recent song obsession: Paradise by Coldplay. I watch the 54th Grammy award and dang, he was sooooo good. they played a tribute to Whitney Houston, it was pretty good, since it was only prepared for two days.

distracting myself to music is the only best solution to control my emo days.

dude, i'm sooo freaking piss off (here i go again)

kk...gotta pull myself together, thank god Valentine's day is over.

let's look forward to SPM result day!

YEAH!

I decided on Lumix gf-2, thanks for the info, Elio!

then when i get my FEBruary pay, imma get a studio microphone.

i really dig this hair..SOOO MUCH. it wasn't shaved atcually, it was just boy short at the side and beautiful lustrous curl at the other side. DAMN! Lindsey Pavao totally dig this hair. yar, but what would happen when it grows? HOHOHO..

ribbon in my mouth..

i wanna curse again..lol!

kkkkkk, calm down..

whatever i do, YOU WILL NOT SEE IT..

just forget it..

don't give a damn, don't give a shit..

i hate theory...

i hate you..

i hate you..

and

i still hate you...

xoxo

Ann

Happy Valentine's Day

Okay, so people are celebrating it. Don't matter single nor couple, they ARE celebrating. But even though i'm single or couple, you think i'm even allow to go out?! lol! in my dreams! So, there's no surprise that i feel a bit sick or maybe jealous when people posted up where they hang out, or the gifts from loved ones.

I pass my driving test XD after 6 hours of waiting, cursing, and sun-bathing, i finally pass it =.='' FINALLY!! oh, can't wait to get my driving liscence, i will vroom here and vroom there..

i wonder who's going to pay for the petrol money..

hmmm ?.?

i tried a lady gaga pose..i know the face is soo freak out damn ugly..=.=''

anyway..i know i'm sour-graping now, but what really matters is your lover's birthday, your anniversary together...happy valentines day is celebrated by everybody..so what is really special about it?

i'm not trashing, i'm just wondering..

yeah, trashy..

i really need to have a girl's night out to cleanse away my brain..

i don't give a damn

i don't give a FFFFUUU***CKKKing damn

(whoa, i curse again)

i don't give a damn, i don't give a shit..

i remember the old avril lavigne song...'i don't give a damn'

I REMEMBER EACH AND EVERY LYRICS TO EVERY OF HER OLD SONGS!

but that was last time..

i really need to get myself straight..

lol..let me think why i hate valentine's day soo much..

oh yeah..the first time someone celebrate it with me was at school.

that person bought a cake with a love box containing an eatable violin model inside. and a wonderful v-day card with folded heart shapes arrange into a big heart with our pictures at the back of the card.

and i gave the person a handmade love book written by me. WHOLE BOOK.

and guess what? all the gifts let the person's current ex threw it away in the dumpster.

=.=''

you heard that, stupid? if i know, i keep the card, thank you.. that card was beautiful..and my hardwork!!! ALL THROWN AWAY..

bloody..

but that was old story..

who gives a damn anyway..

dress: Tangy

Heels: NEU look

xoxo

Ann