You won't know me

Shoot, my mood is terrible today..i have just came back from Sg, and then landed myself into an arguement..and then my mum keep pestering me to phone every driving agent in As ,.i can't breathe..i just wanna sit down and online..

sideway, hug my waist, i'm size 24 and it's expanding..

lol

hug it before  it expand..

Though i think i really need to grow up mentally..why is it i am always label as a useless fellow in my family, that i always day dream and never pay attention whats surrounding me..i tell you wat, family,normally those who are  towards the music or arts field had a different brain than yours..check my frequency, it's diff.

i have feelings too, you know, its because you never expose me, therefore i become such 'useless' .. 

ooh, i love the reflection at the mirror...

i had an empty soul...

my heart is empty

my eyes are empty

some monster ate it..

chomp chomp chomp it goes..

and yet i watch it snatch it away

and i do nothing coz its a monster afterr all

how dare you

xoxo

ann

guilty

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Went out for Pizza gathering just one week before SPM with the cha mou girls.

and from that day onward i realize how small my stomach is..

From left: shey hwa, me, xin ning and sandy tan..

where's that slow tortoise?

hehe, shey hwa wear heels, so i have to hitch up a little to balance our heights

Oh yeah, finally, the five of us with the help of Ann's pro self timer shot..

lol!

MONSTeR lighting..

i hate the dim lights..

xoxo

Ann

Exhausted

i have jz run with dog to Mcdonlad for bout 1km? went shopping walking around for more than 10km? and the fact that we whole family went squeeellliing running to catch up with the next MRT is hilarious..
Damn, why can't Malaysia be that systematic and luxurious in shopping malls..

three more exhausting day and my leg definetly would break

Bugis street <3
Orchard road suddenly feel too expensive for me..

Ann to parents : why are you two not from Singapore?!?!


xoxo
Ann

it will rain-Bruno Mars

If you ever leave me, baby, Leave some morphine at my door Cause it would take a whole lot of medication To realize what we used to have, We don't have it anymore.
There's no religion that could save me No matter how long my knees are on the floor, oh So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making Will keep you by my side Will keep you from walking out the door.
Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain
I'll never be your mother's favorite Your daddy can't even look me in the eye Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing Saying there goes my little girl walking with that troublesome guy
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand Oooh well little darling watch me change their minds Yea for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try, I'll try I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding If that'll make you mine

and it all make sense

Wood on the mountain

it's one of that feeling again...i hope for safety, i hope for everything to be happy..i need to think, to ransack my ill mind..to accept the deny , to dig it out and try burying it..

somebody give me a shovel, how deep i dig, it will never cover every spot of it..

i know you know..

and we will keep quiet till the end

it will be our little secret

i cover it with a smile..thank you friends to let me discover who i am..and from that struggle and failure, i learn to become me and gain back love..gain self esteem..

"if only you are what you are last time." Some stupid said that to me and i realize how mess up i was before..i wasn't myself because i don't have any acceptance..i was afraid how people would judge me..i was afraid they hate me..

Kor Kor's boots..looks like one of Dr. Martens?

I am more jovial now, more confident, not conservative..no more that stupid n shape mouth..and this is why you don't find me that appealing last time.(do i sound like a food to you? yummy).

Boo you..

what we share..add value..what we had..add memories..what we been through..add experience..and what we had regretted..add NOTHING..

because there is NOTHING  ahead..

yet..

i'm still tied up in the same string with you..

xoxo

Ann

haha...hard to understand eh? i tried my own sentences..

go take a hydro, bro..

and hydro means BATH in my own language..

yo

Fatigue chic

Tomorrow, i will start a five day holiday sitting the Aeroline go..can't believe they atcually serve CHICKEN RICE shop as our meal..we will stop by at KL, 1utama ad then board the aeroline there to singapore..*yawn* it will be a very very long journey..so readers, i will be absent for five days..

i got my own mobile phone already!and just last night, i an cha mou men had a wonderful dinner at TM bidding farewell to Stupid who is going to work in genting for three sickening month..oi, do something wrong so that the bos can fire you! haha..because she feel heavy hearted to go, and i feel heavy hearted too..gbye!~

Just one of my pic..there's plenty but i got to keep it coming after five days of *yawn*..after that i'll be taking driving lesson..and guess what? I GOT A JOB!! i just need to go one week once and it count by hour.. one hour 16 dollars..(nothing much) as a violin teacher at PERLIS..god damn..sooo far..haha, but i aint complaining since the music shop owner is daddy's friend.then i saw Kedah Music Academy offering job too.. because i really need money badly, i think i wanna try my luck there too..

imagine lil ann teaching those toddlers how to hold the violin..i'm afraid they would either take it and hit it on my head, or think it's a giant chocolate and eat it..

Dress: UNKNOWN

SHOE: NEU LOOK

Who's that stick? ANN TAN, me!

xoxo

Ann

Moving house

i don't knw why i rotate it, it still remain the same..forgive me..i'm going to move soon.to this hinterland where you dont see any shopping mall, see no friends and see no chinese..but at least i got a room , with my musical instruments, many places great for photo shooting and a compound..

My friends plan to have a SLUMBER pARTY over here during CHRISTMAS PERHAPS? hopefully, they just don't say it and won't do it..because i'm having really high hope on that..i've already sort out the gore movie, the comedy and check whether this whole place is fit for five bubbling girls to jump up and down..we can go boating after that at the lake, sit the buggy and yell at the hill..

all my clothes had been move there already..i can't believe i dare to depart with my clothes for a while..OH Goodness..you see, this old house cannot be stayed..the whole cupboard look like it can collaspe anytime..houses with an experience of three flood incident can really damage the house..imagine how many bacteria living inside it..

Ann vs Tree..

Shirt dress: H & M

Crochet Bag: Mummy Made it

xoxo

Ann

Review on spm

i had to rely on this big dictionary for malay vocabs..my english essay section A looks like a big piece of kiddy toilet paper,my Chemistry and Physic Paper 3 experiment looked like it had just came from a country called I-DONT-KNOW-WHAT-THE-HELL ..

thank goodness i manage to balance my account 

and oh yeah...some Smart ppl told us that if you ever written all the answers in pencil, you will be disqualified..i become a jelly bean after that, because i did! then, it turn out tthat it would be equally illogical as there are out of 70/100 probability that students in Malaysia will use pencil to answer hard calculative questions..

oh yeah, see who's working out?he's strong, he's mighty, he conquer the world with just a mouth with no teeth..

lol

studying can make someone go cracko..i hope my brain can function well again after that

MY short hair

i was wondering how i would look like with short hair..and this is how i do it..oh yeah, it's not a wig but i tie it into somekind of turnover that makes it look like i'm having an edgy bob hair..hopefully i don't shock you though..coz i love my tresses, cutting it off is like amputating one of my hand..

sometimes i wash my hair, my hair turn out really curly..and sometimes it look just like a broomhead..i wonder why my curls still last after two years..

I will be away for five days ..Am going to Singapore and how am i suppose to shop when i'm sooo broke..am gonna wear the best outfit and am gonna try my luck in asking for another trip to universal studio? Transformer new ride man!!!! there were rumours about HARRY POTTER..if it is!..BRING IT ON!! i'll be the first one to ride it fifty times !!!

Doing a domain is hard, so im keeping my blog because it had reached 50 followers..First you must have money to pay for a free website domain..second you had to extra buy GBs?and then you must have at least 300 views per day to keep your blog..or not they are going to delete your whole blog..

so forget it..

i'm sticking to you, dear bloggie..

xoxo

Ann

Spm OVER OVER OVER

Oh yeah baby, bring the rock in, carve my name in, shake that booty and sing a stinky song..

lol...my house is almost vacant now, getting on a move to this hinterland out north..when they first moved my piano, i was practically crying my eyes out..NO NO NO!! don't touch that..leaave itttt...hugging the sides as i struggle and wrestle with the guys..

then..they toook my violin..and then my guitar..

boo yah..

have i mention that after SPM this afternoon, i have no feeling at all..everybody had this smiley face and i don't get it aT ALL..or maybe i had long lost that sense of freedom because i still do not feel freee or anything...my mum expect me to pay for my own driving liscence..what kind of parent does that?

i'm not mummy's little girl anymore..you can talk about me being immature and sooo naive in doing things, but you can't say i have a mind that only think straight and not out of the box..

i DO have feelings too..i'm not a three year old child who you can easily manipulate and stamp over here like a dead wooden log..

anyway..chocolate wooden log taste nice..if you're a herbivore,,. 

did i mention i had to wear glasses?

i make a list counting my hairs each time it falls  to the ground..yeap..the maximum was 78 strands of hair because on that day i wash my hair..can't believe my shock..if i exceeded 100..you know that you're either seriously sick with brain tumour or you just have a bad condition of hair..

thank god i haven't exceed that amount yet..

pray hard..

xoxo

Ann

Spm sickness

The thing about this exam, it makes you sooo sick of studying that everytime you look at every nook and corner, you feel like throwing up..i have PANDA eyes, blemish skin and uncountable hair drops EVERY single day..the amount of hair on the floor scares the bone out of me..

DAMN

just after Moral today, my mum took me to AS mall for lunch..seeing even a small itsy bitsy hairband itch me to buy it..it's like i'm too long stuck here without shopping..

Oh great *in sarcasm* another god damn three weeks..can't they just put everything into one whole week and get it finished?

i can't wait to drive..

vroom vroom vroom

xoxo

Ann

First day of SPM

Faedah belajar secara berkumpulan..
and Peranan Keluarga untuk menangani kemelut perlakuan negatif dlm kalangan remja..

paper 2 ..so-so..
tomorrow ENGLISH..
the day after that is history..
been studying for 4 hours during weekdays, 8 hours during weekend (no kidding, i time myself)

vroom vroom vroom..

xoxo
Ann

Down the bandwagon

Its those time of the year where you dig out your old photos and start to think back what exactly happen at that moment..let me see..hrm...it's Our Hari Raya jamuan and i am wearing a blue malay suit (mummy created it to make it look modern) with the long tight skirt below that you need to interwine it over and over again and if you're not careful it might drop off because it's more like a sari =.=''

Ah sir (Mr chan at the photo) shook my hand just two days ago and i was puzzled at this..then he said he won't be meeting me again..haha..don't worry there's always such thing call social networking

my favourite piece from Forever 21..it may look extremely familiar if you view back my old posts..i wear it quite a couple of times..

it looks big but it's figure hugging..i can hardly breathe in it though (sign of growing sideways)

exam stress..suddenly history seem like a bunch of racist item or propaganda item to spread religious act..

will i be thrown to jail for saying this?

don't!

xoxo

Ann

15 yrs old

Ooh, i dig out my 15 yrs old photo...that time i've just straighten my hair..

15 yrs old memories seem very short and i don't remember anything besides going to the library ..=.=''

what happen to me..did i knock on my head after that, because i just DON"T remember anything..i don't even remember having PMR exam..

hrm...the start of 15 , i had this boy kinda looking hair,.and then when it outgrown, i straighten it and become ultra girly suddenly..

...*yawn* going to sleep soon..it's 12.30 midnight..

20++ days to SPM..

i lvoe you , bloggie

xoxo

Ann

umbrella

happy Deepavali to all my indian friends! Na une kudelikirain ( just spelling what seems like I love you =.='')..going to school is a waste of time..

the teacher see our face and we see her face and we both vomit ..

nothing to do but to pump us with exercises..i hate exercises that don't have answers, no matter how hard you do, you don't know if it's right or wrong..

it's just a WASTE of time

unpublished photo ..

hehehehe..that time my hair is so short, my eye is soo small (still small) and everybody is sooo happy..

until now..

people changed and they become like a neurotic person..of course, SPM is the factor that brought all this..

KILL IT KILL IT!!! Kill it at once!!

*stab stab stab*

ouch..i stab myself instead..

i'm catching the disease soon...

beware

xoxo

Ann